[A sentiment like that is really not helping Noctis' attempt not to cry. Again. He's done practically nothing besides that and sleep since...
His breath hitches, and he recalls suddenly way back in that very first tomb, still reeling over the news of what happened in Insomnia, when he'd bit out at Cor, 'King of what?' Even as recently as the moment Leviathan whorled forth, he had an answer for that, but now it slips through the cracks in his mind, and once again he wonders, 'King of what?'
He's been told time and again that he is the Chosen King - King of the Stone, Gentiana called him, and other things - that he'll purge the land of darkness. But how can he do that like this? How can he when he can't even find the courage to put on his father's ring? When he can't even save those nearest and dearest to him? How can he fulfill such a destiny when he couldn't even manage the promise he made to Luna when they were children? 'When the time comes, I'll save you.'
And with Ignis... Friendship or not, he should have been able to, should have --
Noct's shoulders tremble as he continues to fight the losing battle, and one tear makes its way past his crumbling defenses.]
I -- I d-don't deserve -
[that friendship, that love, all this sacrifice
certainly not this kindness from someone who must hurt even more than he. At least Noct is whole of body - if anything, he's more powerful than before (not that he ever wants to call upon Leviathan if he can at all avoid it. Not after... this).]
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His breath hitches, and he recalls suddenly way back in that very first tomb, still reeling over the news of what happened in Insomnia, when he'd bit out at Cor, 'King of what?' Even as recently as the moment Leviathan whorled forth, he had an answer for that, but now it slips through the cracks in his mind, and once again he wonders, 'King of what?'
He's been told time and again that he is the Chosen King - King of the Stone, Gentiana called him, and other things - that he'll purge the land of darkness. But how can he do that like this? How can he when he can't even find the courage to put on his father's ring? When he can't even save those nearest and dearest to him? How can he fulfill such a destiny when he couldn't even manage the promise he made to Luna when they were children? 'When the time comes, I'll save you.'
And with Ignis... Friendship or not, he should have been able to, should have --
Noct's shoulders tremble as he continues to fight the losing battle, and one tear makes its way past his crumbling defenses.]
I -- I d-don't deserve -
[that friendship, that love, all this sacrifice
certainly not this kindness from someone who must hurt even more than he. At least Noct is whole of body - if anything, he's more powerful than before (not that he ever wants to call upon Leviathan if he can at all avoid it. Not after... this).]